Ancient wounds

My hypnosis journey from a field of restless souls to a field of tulips...

I have been doing a great deal of work to heal things that have been in my family history; changing my behaviors, habits, identities, and beliefs into something that is more healthy, loving, and supportive than what my ancestors had available to them.

As a hypnotherapist and energy worker I have encountered many people doing this same work. Intuitively, I have felt for quite some time that this work which my clients, I, and many others are doing heals more than our own present lives. As someone who is always reading and researching to learn more, I have learned that this ancient wound clearing and healing is rampant in the most beautiful way.

What are ancient wounds? They appear in a number of ways:

• Beliefs: Things have always been a certain way and families accept that this is their lot in life; they may include poverty, ill health, or a number of limiting things.

• Identities: This can include titles, responsibilities, and vows which people have been given, or have had thrust upon them. These identities tend to limit one’s choices and often place them in a subservient position; caring for others, putting everyone else first, and more things which they accept they are or who they must be instead of finding who they want to be. “My mom was always the one who hosted all the big family meals, so now that falls to me…” They accept these roles without question.

• Habits/Addictions: Just because everyone in your family was addicted to some substance, or they were verbally abusive does not mean this is a family trait or tradition that we should accept and certainly not that we should carry forward.

Healing ancient wounds includes acknowledging the thing that exists whether it is happening in the present or happened in the past. The role of the healer is to validate the concerns and help the client understand that nothing they did or did not do, nothing they were or were not justifies the behaviours they experienced. They can choose to forgive and then choose to live a different life for themselves and their descendants.

For the longest time, my intuition has told me that doing this work is healing and changing more than the present experience; it is healing in The Field for all connected to the person doing the work. Does that mean that everyone in my family feels magically better when I do the work? No, I believe what it does mean is that it will get easier for the next and the next and the next person as each connected soul does the forgiveness work and chooses love.

The following transcript is from an Interlife Session I had in February of 2023 that confirmed my gut feelings.

Be there now, in the interlife space… you have the ability to look forward and backward to understand the events that shaped your character. this is a place all knowing… Who if anyone welcomes you to this place?

I am at a very um, old graveyard, like the kind in the movies with the tall pillars and creaky iron gates. There is a wispy gate keeper there.

Do you have any thoughts about this being?

They are very old and wise. It’s like they are the keeper of the past.

You say they, is there more than one individual there?

No, it’s just that they are not a he or she… they don’t have a….

I understand, they are neither male nor female. Do they have any facial features or any distinctive characteristics?

No, if I could create this being for my Halloween display, I would be very happy. They are very ethereal… kind of drippy.

I do not know how to describe them. It’s like they open their arms, and the energy is dripping down. You look at their face and it doesn’t hold a shape, like they are a melted wax person.

Does this being, do you have a sense that this being is someone you may know from any realms?

I don’t think…. I get the impression they are the keeper of past darkness. The ancient wound keeper. We are at the top of this slight hill, I haven’t moved through the gates yet, but I can see all these old, not scary, but there are these old creepy grave markers, resembling Halloween. There is a little rise of a hill, it is very misty, and the feeling Are you ready to look at the past?

I realize no visual speech exists here, but are you receiving any telepathic pictures or any communication like that?

I have a sensation of my skull getting very tight and it is like this person is Death or a Grim Reaper kind of person.

Ok, do you have a sense that this apparition is a spirit guide?

I think yes, I think… I am getting the impression that they are the guide for when I am helping clients or doing the work myself to help letting go, or helping people let go of ancient wounds. They are like the Ancient Wound Keeper. They have all the records of all this low, old, yucky, cruddy stuff that needs to be let go.

Alright, what are you being told? Why have you been brought to this space now?

To show me the extent of the clean-up. It is like I am still just standing at the gate. The gate is open, and the keeper is on the inside… really tall. It is a tall gate, but the keeper is REALLY tall and is leaning on the gate. The gate is open. You know how if you are talking to a custodian, and they are leaning on their broom? This keeper is leaning on the gate, and it is not for me to go through the gate, it is just for me to see all the work that is there to be done, all the clean-up that is there to be done.

Now I am seeing that way at the back of this hill, this field, kind of like a ray of light coming through these clouds, (like God rays, like on a cloudy day when there is just one ray of light way in the distance, a single bright shaft of light) these mists will go away and there will be just light here.

(The graveyard was full of the restless souls, that the people I am working with, their souls were not put to rest when their bodies were put to rest. The work these people are doing allows them to rest easy, finally.)

Okay…so you haven’t gone into the gate yet, so perhaps, what is it that this particular guide wants to tell you about the challenges you have been having with your work?

It is not for me to go into the gate, it is for me to know that the work is there and for me to remember not to cross through into the yuck and muck and I don’t need to go into the gate, I don’t need to explore. I don’t need to go read the markers or weed the plots. I can do the work from a safe distance, from a proper distance. I don’t feel afraid, but they are saying you don’t need to get into the muck and the mire, you can help from where you are.

Okay, fair enough. So, can this individual give you some insight into why clients are having more troubles, or having trouble settling in when they are coming for session work with you?

Because these are the heavy hitters. These are people who have come here to clean up a WHOLE BUNCH of historical muck.

Okay, so, what is the process for you to follow through so you can continue to do this work, have a little bit less challenge with clients and still get the outcome without diving into the muck yourself?

I need to do a better job to not set expectation that this work is once and done, because in preparation for dealing with what is behind this iron gate, I have dealt with high vibrating people. I have dealt with other practitioners, with other people who are at my level. Not that I am better than… but I am more prepared to deal with this stuff, but now I am getting the people who really need my help. when these people come to me with big problems, I need to explain that this is going to be a multiple… this is not once and done. I need to work with them so that they can get through this, and I need to set the expectation accordingly for them and for me to understand this is not an easy task. It is not a once and done.

What is the gift this guide has for you? What can they show you to help you get to where you need to be?

The gift is by showing me the vast expanse of the grounds that he keeps. It is more of a masculine identity coming forward now… that um… oh! The reason that he has now turned masculine is to show that this place is all devoid of light, devoid of beauty, and devoid of the feminine touch and so he is telling me that I don’t have to approach packages in a masculine marketing way, I can approach it in a nurturing, caring feminine way to say that I want to help them help themselves and that these are deep, deep wounds and that they have to invest in their well-being in order to take the time, and it is not just the time in the chair with me, the time in between is important too…

Ok…

I have to kind of, it’s not a package, it’s not about selling a package, it’s about creating a healing kit for them that has steps that they take; like teaching them to breath and teaching them to write and teaching them to pay attention to their dreams. It’s a Care Package! It’s like a Care Package!

okay, wonderful. Alright, is there anything else that this guide wishes to share with you?

He just tells me to stop being so stubborn and the field needs to be cleared. Just because one dumb ass said that I had to do something like packages… like I’m cutting off my nose to spite my face. By trying to provide that guy wrong, you are doing yourself and your clients a disservice. He is showing that the intake will help with this. Rather than trying to sell them while they are in the seat, it would be better if I did the intake, then I can help them figure out what they are trying to accomplish. By giving them a little time, I can sit with it and figure out what they need; my guides will help me with this. I can intuit how much time they are likely to need, but I would never rip people off, so if they were finished in fewer sessions, I would just refund them the money if they had no more need of my services.

I will be tailoring each package for each client.

Now, do you feel that you are ready to be taken somewhere else, where more will be revealed? Is this guide coming with you, or is everything completed now?

No, he stays where he is. When we are ready, we come to him to see the darkness that needs to be cleared but it is not for us to go into his realm, nor is it for him to come with us. He is just keeping all that stuff… and he is really hoping that pone day he can leave but right now he has to stay with all that ancient wound stuff.

I am going to ask the SC to move you to another place perhaps with another guide… just let me know when you have reached that point.

There is just a little bit more information about the Care Packages; they are not a reduction in price, it is an expectation for the client to plan for the number of sessions is and book them in advance even if they do not pay for them in advance.

So, you have come to terms with the packages and that is wonderful… let’s now move forward to the next phase of the journey. Who if anyone welcomes you here?

I see a purple orb… a shape but not person shaped yet.

Do you have any thoughts about this being or orb that is taking shape?

I keep hearing Celesta, but I don’t know if that is because I want her here now…

Is that being taking any shape at all?

Not yet.

Okay… alright. Can you hear or understand the name for this spirit guide?

It keeps coming that it is Celesta.

Okay… let’s do a review of this life that you are living now. Let’s do a review of the goals that you had for this life. What are your greatest achievements and of course let’s review the greatest disappointments as well.

Well, the one that comes to mind as both is receiving and letting go of Alexandra with as much grace as I have. Letting go of my first marriage and finding peace and acceptance and being able to actually send love to the father of my children without feelings of repulsion or anger or anything negative; just having a neutral stance and appreciation for the gift of our sons and Alexandra.

Wonderful…

and the times where I have been brave enough to step out of the spiritual closet in places where it was not necessarily accepted, and I was the weirdo in the room.

I would not call it being a weirdo…

Looking at it from the perspective of the others in the room…

So, let’s move to some of the achievements of late, what are some of those from the last two years?

Boundaries, creating boundaries and consider bringing them to the forefront of my mind when they are being challenged. Putting myself first which was really difficult and continues to be a challenge that does not come naturally yet.

But it is a work in progress?

Yes, and um, truly accepting my expertise and accepting that I am an expert in something or a leader in something rather than putting it off and saying pshaw…. yes, I am really good at this and owning that, allowing it to settle over me… owning it.

let’s move into some of the recent challenges. What are some of the achievements and disappointments that you can understand based on the information discussed prior to session today….

I achieved…. I was honest with my mom and brother, but my disappointment was that it did not seem to change things for her, it only changed it for me. I don’t believe it created any greater understanding for her.

How bout for you?

For me, I have a greater sense of freedom but there is still a little bit of uncertainty. It goes back to the conversation of rebooting the relationship or cutting it off. I would like to call but I do not wish to mess up the boundary that I set.

You have placed boundaries with several family members and friends. When there is a feeling that you have been disrespected, does that put a barrier or to consistently hold that boundary?

In the past, I would just grin and bear it. In the present what I hope to do is… like the school crossing guard STOP! and everyone has to stop. I need to have my stop sign and everything needs to stop if the boundary is… I don’t know if it is actually disrespect to me. They are oblivious and they don’t know that they have hurt me or that I can even BE hurt.

I would like you to commune with your guide on this one, and I would like you to ask why are these people coming back into your life? What challenges and lessons need to be learned here? is there a reboot, a reframe or a softening that can still honour you and your boundaries?

with clients, I do not need to resume a friendship in order to help them professionally with their problems. With ones who have pushed my boundaries, I need to listen to my gut and keep a solid no. With others, it is not my gut, but my brain that thought, oh my goodness, she is irritating and when she came, she was really wanting to work on things.

What other advice are you being given? What is the process to release the stop sign, to release the visceral reaction? What is the process that involves the least amount of challenge while still honouring your boundaries and who you are.

When the crossing guard comes up, that is a NO. It is funny. My guide who is the crossing guard is like a little old British school marme with the grey skirt, and the grey shoes and the little matching hat and the HA! stop sign. When she comes in it’s a no, it’s a no, it’s a no. But when it is like a relative who I have told repeatedly to respect my boundaries and they don’t… I need to raise the stop sign on my OWN… That’s not a permanent stop, it is a stop what is going on right now.

the one that made my guts hurt, she is a no, there is no question there.

Are there any gifts you can bring into your heart, into your life force to know and be clear whether it is a yes or a now… less of a grey area to know for yourself and not worry so much about the other?

My guide is strengthening my gut so the messages from the gut are super clear.

Will that be complete in the session today?

yes.

There are other matters of importance today. Is there guidance regarding your business practices? Substack, Care Packages, anything else?

With SS, they are showing me that to use my…. respond, respond… what does that mean in respect to SS. Don’t do the thing where people have to subscribe to see stuff, do the thing where Buy me a coffee, where people can choose to support me. The people who feel they are getting something from me, can choose to support even though they can get it for free.

Is there a lesson in this?

Yes, that I will understand the value of what I am putting out there and I don’t have to worry about setting the prices and asking for money. This can work like the olden ways, where people will want to support because they are being given a gift, kind of like how tribes supported the healers in the olden days.

What is the Angel on My Shoulder all about?

The are showing me the youth and the lost thirty-year-olds and the youth who need a wise maternal force in their lives to help them understand who they are and help them see their beauty that they do not see reflected for them in the world. It is for me to hold up the mirror to show them that they don’t need to change a thing, except to love themselves. It is not just one thing, it is many interactions whereby speaking to them with love and telling them what I see when I see them, that I then become that AOTS to remind them of their goodness even when they are not with me. I can do that in the room, or sending my words, or through a video. I just have to trust that the messages are landing on the shoulders who are needing them. I am seeing it landing on the left shoulders….

Does this tie into the care packages and the clients who have deeper concerns.

No, this is already happening, and the care packages are not existing yet. what that is that the care packages are… people are coming to me as an expert and as an expert I need to help them understand what they need. I cannot expect them to know themselves. they could be coming to me believing it was supposed to happen in one session and when it doesn’t, they think they have failed me. I need to be the expert in the room with the care packages.

But this is different. this is kind of like that corny old “build it and they will come.” It’s like dandelion seeds that will spread out and land where they need to be. so, I need to understand that I don’t always get to see whose shoulder it lands on, but it lands where it needs to.

Wonderful, please more to a greater connection with your soul… what lessons have you learned thus far as you gain higher understanding in this state of conscious?

I am already love incarnate and they are showing me people’s hearts like buds that opens a little each time I send them love.

From this broader perspective what is the purpose of experiencing this soul space?

To reassure me that I am already doing the things that I came here to do… there is no magic course or magic task. they are showing me the same thing that I tell other people, which being here on the planet and being authentically myself… being open hearted with everyone I meet, putting love out there with everything I create is doing what I set out to do.

Wonderful, now specifically, what connection is there between this space and your queries from today?

If I love it, do it and don’t look for the likes and validation. If I love it, do it and just trust that it is getting something far more important than a thumbs up.

Moving to meeting with your council… describe this place, what happens when you arrive there? What is happening right now?

I feel a lifting sensation in my body, starting at my feet and moving up my legs. My council tells me to Lighten Up!

How does that relate to your exploration today?

That I am asking for freedom and if I want freedom, I should quit putting the chains on myself. They are showing me that there are that there are people coming into my life right now who are sort of…. you know when a rocket ship goes up, there is a piece that creates greater propulsion and then drops off… then another piece blasts off to create more propulsion. They are showing me that there are people being brought to me now who are going to help propel me further like I am wanting.

With regard to that propulsion… expanding, can you remove those chains so you are free to do those things?

I have the keys!

Do you want to remove them?

Yes.

Let’s have your guides help you do that now.

What do the elders have to say about your progress as you move through this life?

They are proud of me. I am doing a really good job. They are showing me a field of tulips like in Holland… those massive fields. They are saying these are all the hearts you have already opened.

Anything else?

Yes, just cut it out with the self-flagellation! Let it loose.

Is that going to happen now?

I sure hope so…

What else do they want you to know?

That I am solidly on my path, I am already doing the things I came here to do so I need to be easier on myself.

What else do you need to know?

I asked them, after all of those hearts get open, who tends them? They said don’t worry as soon as they open the sun is there and they get all that they need. They have what they need.

Let’s go next to a place of healing… what do they want you to take away from this place?

They are telling me that I have worked hard so I deserve to chill out; just chill out. I can help and create… do what I want to do and trust that I will be taken care of.

I want to know that I am making a difference and they assure me that I am.

That was the end of the session and I was most definitely left with the understanding that my intuition is correct; as we all do this work to change the ancient wounds and make better choices for ourselves, we are releasing those who came before us and making it more likely that those habits, beliefs, identities, and issues will not carry on as a family tradition for our children and beyond.

This is important work we are doing and it is a part of the New Earth that is on the horizon.