The Things I Do To Me...

Weight on my shoulders & a tangled web of worries

As someone who practices both hypnosis and Reiki, I know a lot of practitioners and we are a funny bunch who seem to believe that we should be able to handle our own problems alone. For some reason, we think this training and all the certificates on the wall mean we do not need to seek out the assistance of others. Not true, so not true.

Working on my outdated beliefs, habits, and issues is definitely an ongoing process, Shrek isn’t the only one who is like an onion. In a previous blog post here, I wrote about my first visit to David Fernandez for Body Talk where I sought help for abundance blocks and issues with restless legs. I took his observations to heart in June and worked some deep anger which naturally led to a greater connection to my Higher Self and wisdom. I thought I would be done however I wanted him to check to see if there was any more hidden anger blocking my abundance. I wanted to be done with that for good.

Are we ever done healing?

My answer was unequivocally NO. I discovered that I still was not entirely clear of being impacted by the emotional turmoil of three of my family members. I believe they are capable of carrying their own burdens and none of the trio asked me to even assist them with their issues; nonetheless, I soaked up their stress like the best piece of Bounty and carried that wad of yuck with me. Why? Logically I believe that we have the experiences we planned to have, to learn the lessons we came here to learn, to experience the full range of human emotion until we have learned it and earned our peace. I am mostly at the earned peace stage of my life but I seem to want to spend my peace on other people’s issues, namely these three. I hoped that David would be able to shed some light on the root cause and help me to stop diving into my salty/crunchy binge balm that never actually makes me feel better for long as well as being horrible for blood pressure. I asked him to work on the blood pressure as well.

The other odd and presumably unrelated issue I was experiencing was something I dubbed “entrapment”. At times in the summer, often after indulging in said salt fests, I cannot get my wedding ring over my knuckle. Logically I know that if I run my hand under cold water and suds it up, the ring will come off; the panic I feel is illogical and pretty intense. I have the same overreaction to putting on a sports bra. Ladies, you know what I am talking about, you get it halfway on and it rolls up in a weird way on your back making it nearly impossible to move into place. Again, I know it will move and in the worst-case scenario, I have really great scissors in the sewing desk just down the hall which could be used to free myself; still, I experience a wave of panic. Why doth my brain defies the logic and allow the Vagus Nerve to run wild spilling fear all through me?

I reported all these things to David during the intake, asking him if I was bringing too many things to the table. “No, you are not and actually I do not believe they are separate issues at all,” he confidently replied.

Body Talk is some kind of magical voodoo affair. He holds my wrist with one hand and puts the other on various spots on my body to ask questions. The insights are deep and clear; tears usually flow within the first ten minutes of being there which definitely confirms the truth in his findings.

You are having issues with trusting yourself and control my dear. You believe you have the right answers for your family members and then you stack their issues on top of all the other things you believe you need to do for your success, creating overwhelm for your mind. This holds you back creating the pain in the legs and hips. Your body wants to move forward; your refusal to let things that are not yours go creates a block to your creativity and belief that you could be free to move forward. You are not trusting others to care for themselves and you do not trust that it is okay for you to just enjoy your life, pursuing your interests and ideas freely. You need to let it all go.

I do not profess to understand the magic that is Body Talk, however, I can describe my experience. He asked me to breathe in deeply and breathe out through my mouth with jaw slightly opened. Synchronizing his movements with my breath, he manipulated different parts of my body to help me let go of the pain, emotion, and stress I was carrying. Some of it was uncomfortable but mostly it was fascinating. He would press on my thymus and my foot would twitch or work on my head which released my left leg. The foot bone’s connected to the jawbone…

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I do not know if your life is like mine; the way things come in waves. I am in the midst of reading a very interesting book called The White Tablets of Melchizedek: The Codes of Truth. At the time of this appointment, I am digesting chapter three which is Tablet IV: Trust. Coincidence? Is this your first time reading My Weird and Wonderful Life? We do not believe in coincidence here.

Tablet II is Responsibility and it talks about allowing the responsibility for the solution of the problem to lie with the person who is having the problem. The timing of this book and seeing David for the associated problems was Divine to be certain.

You may have read that quote and thought, how is that related to you carrying other people’s problems, Patricia? Well, here is the thing, just like I need to trust myself for my choices, path, inspirations and the like, so do I need to butt out and allow other people to trust themselves. When I interfere with my family members’ issues, they are not finding their own way; for all I know, I could be making their path longer and more difficult by stepping in with guidance I was not asked to provide. In the Yuen Method, I learned that a mother’s worry is the greatest thing to energetically hold a child back; I need to send love not worry, nor carry the burden in my heart or mind.

One other thing that David said to me which keeps playing on repeat: You are great at manifesting things. This life was supposed to be easy for you, it is you that is making it difficult. You are a wide beam who casts light wherever you go and you can draw what you want to you easily… if only you would allow it.

Just let go…