As someone born under the sign of Aquarius who is a Manifesting Generator in Human Design, I am never doing just one thing at once. I used to see this as a personality flaw; why do I fail to finish one thing before beginning another? Having learned more about my human design, I now understand that this is not a flaw, it is simply my nature.
The habit of multitasking extends to my book consumption as well. I currently have 32 books listed as in progress in my Goodreads account. Again, not a flaw, they tell me, a feature. I begin books, garner some key information which then leads me to another book with the next piece to the cosmic puzzle that is this human experience.
I have been reading lots on healing ancient wounds, breaking old family traditions, and self-forgiveness for quite some time now. The quest is to understand my own experience as well as those of my hypnosis and Reiki clientele. We appear to be in a time rife with change; so many of us looking to break the unhealthy family traditions of our past. This is lightening our own loads as well as decreasing the likelihood of our children, grandchildren and so on carrying forward our unhealthy patterns.
One of the beliefs that have been passed down pertains to emotion; apparently, we aren’t supposed to have any. I vehemently disagree with this. We have been taught that tears are a sign of weakness, we should keep a stiff upper lip, and don’t ever let them see you cry.
This is pure and utter malarky in my opinion and I am not alone in this belief; the two authors who books are my current mind mash up are Bringers of the Dawn by Barbara Marciniak and Why was I born in Africa by Judith Kusel
Before Christmas, I had tucked into Judith Kusel’s Why was I born in Africa book when a friend texted me that I simply must listen to Barbara Marciniak’s audio book Bringers of the Dawn because it would explain what we were here to do. (Side note: my friend is actually my ex-husband’s new wife who calls me her “Sister of the Light”, that’s how well we get along. She is also a Reiki Master and someone who I respect and admire.) I chose to give my eyes a break in favour of listening to Barbara’s audio book which, at the time of this writing, is free for anyone at the link above. The two books have separate messages about similar topics; hence the mind mash-up experience.
Here is what I have put together from reading both books in rapid succession.
These books present a similar history of humanity, the earth, and all of creation. Assuming this is not the first installment of mine you have read; you will know that I believe we all come from Love in the beginning and return to love when we are finished the human experience; these brilliant authors agree with that premise and go on to expand my understanding even further.
Love according to Barbara is the key to creativity. Light is information; all experiences are held in the light and that is the library of the Akash. Earth is a cosmic library where all shared information from all experiences is placed in our genetic makeup; the library card is our light. She goes on to say that darkness is simply a lack of information. This makes total sense to me; fear is in not knowing, the lack of information. Think about it… what do we fear?
We fear tomorrow because we do not know what it may bring.
We fear others when we do not know if they are friends or foes.
We fear our lack and not knowing how we will make our way in the world.
We fear for our reputation, our security because we don’t know what is being said or what the future brings.
We fear death because we do not know what comes next.
Fear is a vibration of a lack of information therefore it creates darkness in us; it creates a lack of light.
We have been taught to stifle our emotions, yet emotions also carry information. We have emotional intelligence; there are reasons for the experience of anxiety, fear, and tears. When we allow emotion, take the time to feel our feelings, information will surface; with reflection, we can use that information to change the disharmony and allow more room for light and love. Who benefits when we shut down the emotions that tell us something is not right for us? Certainly not us, perhaps those who would like us to soldier on, continue doing the things they wish, living the life another has planned for us, vs one that is healthy for us.
Judith’s book talks about the way the world was created, the original intention and how we got to the point we are at now where so few control the fates, minds, and lives of so many.
In my treatment room, there are not one but two boxes of tissues ready to catch the tears of my clients. I tell them that tears seem to happen in the room and that there is no need to apologize if and when they do. I tease that I charge extra for apologizing for emotional release. Earth is a water planet, water is emotion; we come here to experience the complete range of emotion available here and how long we stay in any one particular emotion is up to us. We need to experience it all, but we certainly do not need to stay there for great lengths of time. We are meant to be at our point of neutral, which is our version of Love. I call that my set point and it is different for each of us. My husband is a much more chill person than I am. My set point is more energized and animated; everyone is different, exactly as it should be. We are not meant to be unfeeling automatons, walking around in predictable, mechanical ways serving the machine that is society. We are here to experience the world, the people, and all creation; to learn, grow, live, and love. In order to do this, we must learn; in order to learn we must feel.
Emotions arise all the time, if we stuff them down, unresolved they need to go somewhere. I believe they are stored in our pain-body and the more pain we store, the more darkness we house. The more darkness, the less light. The less light, the less information and understanding we have about life; fear grows.
There are two categories of emotion: Love and not love, also known as fear. Love is the key to creation. We cannot create a better life from fear, only from love.
We are taught to use our logical minds and ignore our emotional intelligence from a very young age. Emotions lead to feeling… feelings lead to information… information leads to inspiration. Change comes from honouring our feelings and learning to trust our own intuition, the information stored in the library of our genetics.
Those of us who are doing the work to heal ancient wounds are removing that disharmony from the field of consciousness that we all come from and return to. That work can only be done through feeling, receiving information, and then doing the work to heal through forgiveness, acceptance, and love.
The creator is LOVE; therefore, LOVE is creation and creativity. We cannot house love and fear at the same time. We must face our fears, heal our wounds, clear our pain-bodies and make room for more light.
This is the work that I see my clients doing in hypnosis and Reiki sessions. I am honoured to facilitate those journeys.
A recent client came to my chair in a state of being absolutely emotionally shut down. She described herself as someone who is always ready to serve and care for others, who currently could not access her empathy at all. The circumstances of change in her life, the disharmony of a marital breakup and a lack of support from those she thought she could count on put her heart on lock down. As her hypnotic tour guide, I took her to the places she needed to go to heal; working with the Super Conscious mind, she was able to recall things from as young as ten years which contributed to the current crisis. She was ready to remember, heal, and forgive the past to allow peace in the present. She came to hypnosis as a last resort, like so many others do, she had been in talk therapy for a long time and it helped some but left her feeling stuck, unable to shift out of the experiences of the past. Hypnosis takes the conscious mind out of the mix, creating space to move forward without fear and the logical reasons why forgiveness should not be granted. She left feeling lighter, brighter, and with hope for her future. There is a lot for her to explore and I am certain this was only the first layer of the onion, with more to peel away to find her peace. I am honoured to have been part of this journey and many others like this.
When we forgive the past, forgiving not just another, but most importantly, granting self-forgiveness, we can truly let go of yesterday. We only the present, the moment right now.
NOW is the only true currency we have to spend.
It is time to tap into our emotions. It is time to stop the family traditions of stuffing our feelings in the closet in favour of communicating, learning, and stepping forward into peace.
What better way to begin a new year than to let go and live in the now…
More thoughts on the mind mash up of these two authors in future publications.
Sending you love and light…
Patricia
As you and I discussed recently, I'm a huge fan of crying! Thanks for shining a light on the importance of our tears. 💜